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Laurali
Hi, I'm Laurali! I live in a tiny, seaside fishing village in Florida where I nurture my plants, go hiking in the woodland, and wear flowers in my hair.

Fall Magic: A Journal of a Seasonal Shift in My Life

A rustic brown fall leaf and flat lay display tabletop still ife photography and seasonal living
To be honest with you, I wasn't sure if I was ready to talk about the fall season of life or not.  But, then I realized something.  I am changing.  I am shifting again, on the crisp fall breeze.  It's time for me to reveal my fall magic which is a journal of a seasonal shift in my life.

To get all caught up, you might want to check out, Summer Magic: A Journal of a Seasonal Shift in My Life!  I enjoyed writing about it so much that I decided to make it a series on my blog to flow with the turning seasons.

The reason I didn't feel ready to write about it yet is that it's admittedly early in the season and my mind hasn't been in the best place for contemplation.  I'm just coming out of the seasonal blues, which you can read about here, so those emotions are still very raw to me and the wounds are fresh.

I'm going to be gentle with myself here and talk about what's shifting in my life and what leaves I'm turning over.  This is a torrid season of life and not at all like the summer I had.

I guess that's life though.  Things don't always flow or turn out like you think they are.  I'm learning to be okay with that.

As soon as I got back to Florida, everything that could go wrong did go wrong and it sent my world spinning madly out of control.  Sometimes, change happens faster than we can handle and that's been the case with me this fall season.

For one thing, I'm moving!  The building that I am living in is being sold and possibly turned into an AirBNB.  I have maybe a couple of months left in my cute apartment by the sea and this has completely floored me.

However, I am trying to calm down my reaction to this drastic change in my life.  I'm trying to continue to keep up with my normal everyday routines of writing letters to the universe, practicing my yoga routine, and going on mini hiking adventures daily!  All of these things work to keep me grounded and level headed.

Even though this whole moving thing scares me, it's forcing a change to happen that I've really needed for a long time.  It's also making me contemplate what I want out of life moving forward and that's to tap into my secret wishes and desires.

One recurring theme keeps popping up in my life and that's my desire to move to a cabin in the Blue Ridge Mountains.  I've been wanting to move to North Carolina to the Asheville area for more than a decade now.

I keep talking about it as if it's some future thing.  I don't know for sure what the universe has in store for me, but I'm surrendering this situation  to God, the angels, and the nature spirits.  If this is meant to be, the time is now.

My only hesitation, and it's a big one, is leaving my family behind.  My kids are grown and everyone has started to grow up, start their own families, and live their own lives.  This has really made me think that now would be a good time to leave and start over somewhere new.

If you'd like to read more about what's going on in my life and my weekend trip to the pumpkin patch with my kids and oldest granddaughter, you might like my latest currently post about the magic of Halloween and pumpkin spiced lattes.  Halloween is my all-time favorite holiday!

Even though I have a lot of fear and trepidation, making a move out of state might just be the change in my life that I needed all along.  The more I think about it, the more it feels right.

I'm a big believer in the themes that keep thematically popping up in life.  I think they mean something.  I know that I've been pushing this move to the back of my mind for many years now and even though it will be a challenge, now might be the time to embrace the change!

I mean, if I end up staying in Florida for the rest of my life, I'd be perfectly okay with that.  I'm already doing that.  That was already my plan.  I love living in a tiny, seaside fishing village and Florida living.

However, moving might be good for me.  I've left Florida a few times and each time I came back a different person, slightly better in some way.  I think making positive changes in my life can only be a good thing!
Fall Leaves, Pine Cones, and Smooth River Rocks Found in Nature + Table Display

Fall Magic: A Journal of a Seasonal Shift in My Life

Beyond moving, I'm really ready to settle down and really continue to embrace living a slower life.  I mean I already do that now, but it might be nice to live the life I've always envisioned.  That vision has always been a cabin in the mountains where I could grow my own vegetable gardens and hike the trails right from my doorstep.

I visited the Blue Ridge Mountains a few summers ago on a family vacation and we stayed in a big, roomy cabin with majestic views at the top of a mountain.  I never felt more myself, more at home in all my life!

That was the moment I knew that one way or another, I'd live at least part of my life in the mountains.  Maybe I'd become a snow bird.  Maybe I'd just take vacations there and become a leafer in the fall and a snow bunny in the winter.  Whatever the case, I knew it was part of my story, even if I didn't know how it would fit yet.

Wherever I end up, I still want to continue to experience small-town charm.  I have a thing for small towns and have always managed to find the best ones in Florida.  So, even if I do end up in Asheville, it will probably be a small-town outside the city.  Maybe even Black Mountain, North Carolina.

Wherever I go, I want to always stay true to myself.  That's really important to me.  Staying true to myself means having access to organic plant-based foods, being able to go on daily hiking adventures, and practicing my slow living mantra.

It's the same with whatever house I end up living in.  I actually prefer small, minimalist spaces that are easier for me to handle.  A cabin or a redwood tree, have always been at the top of my list for favorite places to live.  It's just very me, you know.

Of course, right now this is all dreaming.  I'm just thinking and contemplating a big move and really at this point don't know where I'll be lead next on my life journey.  Right now it's all just conjecture, but I'm hoping something good will come out of it.
Crisp gold and orange burnt fall leaves on white table display woodland house

Falling in Love With Autumn

Even though it doesn't feel like sweater weather here in Florida yet, I'm still falling in love with autumn.  Falling in love with anything, whether it be a season or a song, makes me think about romantic love.

This is another one of those secret wishes and desires that I long for.  I've been working with Archangel Raphael and his green energy healing light to heal my love life.  Raphael is also the angel of soulmates and twin flames, even though he is a natural healer and angel of nature.

To be honest, I've wanted love for a long time, but I knew in my heart of hearts that I wasn't ready for it yet.  When you really want something from the universe, it can't really give it to you until you're ready.  I think I'm ready to let someone into my heart again.

Love and romance has been another one of those secret wishes and desires that I've pushed down for a long time and keeps popping up again until I deal with it.  Honestly though, I'm really proud of myself for holding out for the right guy.

I'm glad I took some time off from dating to get to know myself better and to break some of the bad patterns I was in when it comes to men in my life.  I used to always date guys that were emotionally unavailable or weren't ready for marriage.  I also dated guys that were in geographically undesirable locations.

I took time off from my love life to work on myself and that takes guts.  But, it also takes guts to let someone into your heart again.  It takes guts to fall in love because think about it, you're falling.

Falling implies taking a leap of faith and that's definitely what I'm trying to do here.  For some reason, I don't think my husband is in Florida.

I don't know though.  I keep feeling like moving someplace new would open me up to new people and experiences.

That includes me being open and receptive to building a life with someone.  You know, building loyalty and trust.

I'll be honest, I don't want to date anymore.  I'm ready to settle down with one person and make a life with him.

I've realized that I still have some residual bitterness from past relationships and heartache that I need to work on.  I want to go into this with an open mind and heart and Archangel Raphael is helping me to do that.

It's not easy when you've been single for as long as I have.  I have to try to let go and let love in and that requires a faith and trust in the universe.  I mean, the person that I end up with might differ from what I envisioned in my mind.

It's the same thing with where I end up.  I could end up staying in Florida or moving to a different mountainous state.  The truth is, the universe has my back.  I have to keep surrendering my heart and these situations to God and the angels.

All I do know is that I'm ready now.  That's the first step and it's a big milestone for me.  I wanted to make my life as perfect as possible before I met the guy of my dreams, but that's not how life works.  Maybe meeting someone at the worst possible time, could be the best possible thing for me.

You just never know.  I've been listening to, "My Own Sinking Ship" by Good Old War on repeat lately.  The song makes me feel that falling in love feeling.  It makes me feel so nostalgic to have that kind of love in my life again.

I also have a huge crush on Dan Schwartz, he's on guitar and vocals if you watch the videos, and he's so darn cute and sexy, I can't help but think I want someone like him.  He's married, of course.  But, a girl can dream.

I want someone that I look at like that.  Where I just look at him and I'm so darn attracted to him and I just want to give all my love to him.  I want him to look at me like that too.

I want a guy that could build me a fire on a cold winter's night or who could sing me a song.  A guy who loves the Great outdoors as much as I do.  I think that's why I have such a crush on Dan Schwartz.

You can read more about the qualities I'm looking for in a husband here.  I'm looking for a modern-day fairytale romance in nature. When I find the one, it's going to create a huge seasonal shift in my life.

I'm scared but I'm mostly ready for it.  The timing is not ideal for finding love, but maybe that doesn't matter.  If it's the right person, maybe he won't care about things like that.  Maybe he'll just care about you.

Well, there you have it.  Another season in life.  Another shift in a new direction.  I feel blessed that I'm at least starting to open myself up to the possibilities of new places, rich experiences, and people.  I may not know where the crisp fall winds will blow me next, but I know that I'll end up someplace good with someone I love. 

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