Laurali
Hi, I'm Laurali! I live in a tiny, seaside fishing village in Florida where I nurture my plants, go hiking in the woodland, and wear flowers in my hair.

Winter Magic: A Journal of a Seasonal Shift in My Life

A woman wearing white bunny slippers on green grass in Florida during the winter season and winter holidays
The winter holidays are upon us, which means it's time for more winter magic and a journal of a seasonal shift in my life!  This is my favorite time of year, where I can either curl up with a blanket and a good book or be outdoors more in the bustling activity of the shops and restaurants, as people shop for Christmas presents and plan elaborate holiday dinners.

Even though the time has changed, and darkness befalls us earlier, I find myself having more energy this time of year.  As an empath, I can pick up on the excited energy of the children as they eagerly await their Christmas presents soon to come.

I can feel the goodwill, the Christmas spirit of mankind surging through the air, as people enjoy the holiday season.  I can feel a flurry of activity as people drink Christmas coffees and bundle up for warmth.  It really is a magical time of year.

Even though I'm excited for Christmas and New Year's, I still feel an ache in my heart because Noah couldn't be here to enjoy it.  Noah, my grandson, died two years ago at only two months old.  Even though we have his baby sister Lilly now, it's hard not to think of him.

One year, the year he died, I could feel him with me as I decorated the Christmas tree and dazzled it with lights.  As I was playing Christmas music, I could feel that he was right there with me, as if he knew I was making the tree just for him.

It gets better in some ways every year.  In some ways, it really doesn't.  It feels like the gap grows wider and we only go on missing his little body and sweet, angelic presence.  The most difficult part of it all is watching my daughter suffer at the loss of her son.

She's only twenty years old and has endured so much for a young person.  I wish I could wrap her in my arms and tell her everything is going to be okay because he is in a better place, but when you miss someone knowing they are in a better place only helps so much.

So, we remember him and try to find ways to include him in our Christmas traditions and stories.  We continue to love him as we carry on with our lives, wishing we could have seen him grow into a handsome young man someday.

Honestly, I'm just so happy I got to know the little guy.  I never knew I could ever love anyone as much as I love my kids until I met my grandchildren.  Noah was the first.  We love you, little man.

In the meantime, we are really trying to do our best to make the holidays sweet for Lilly and Baby Evie.  We have two little grandkids that deserve a magical Christmas.  I just have to believe that Noah is with us in spirit, looking down at us from heaven, like the little angel that he is.

With winter here, comes the cold weather fronts, the Christmas lights, and the magical holiday season.  I've always felt this was a magical time where you could make wishes and they'd probably come true.

Why just today, I was walking through the forest when a dandelion seed came floating in front of me so I made a wish.  I'm not going to tell you what it is though or else it might not come true :)
A Christmas Holiday Pomegranate Smoothie Bowl (Vegan, Gluten-Free)

Winter Magic: A Journal of a Seasonal Shift in My Life

Now, for lighter things in my life.  You know how some people get more depressed during the winter months?  It's called seasonal depression.  I think I may have the opposite of that.

I feel much more energetic and sparkly during the winter holiday season.  I feel more alive.  I think it's the crisp, cold weather and the spirit of Christmas in my heart.  It sounds cheesy but it's true for me.

I love being able to eat cold-weather food and warm drinks.  There's something ultra-warm and cozy about it.  You might like to read, Hot Drinks For Sweater Weather + Organic Tea List for some cold weather tips to bundle up and stay warm!

Like tonight, I might just have some spicy vegan chili for dinner!  It just sounds perfect.  The only thing that might make it better is if I had a fireplace.

Though, living in Florida, a fireplace would rarely get used.  I think I just love the idea of it.  I'm an Aries, a fire sign, and with that comes a lot of attraction to hygge style things, like campfires, firewood, and fairy lights.  You can read about the hygge style heart of nature to see what I mean.

It doesn't hurt that my mom gave me a little Christmas tree with blue twinkling lights.  I wasn't planning on putting up any Christmas decor this year since I'm looking for a new place to live, but a little tree fits into my decor seamlessly.

Next year, I might buy a new fake white Christmas tree again, or perhaps I'll go with a real one.  I love the scent of a Christmas tree.  For now, I'll enjoy decorating my Charlie Brown Christmas tree with blue lights.

Something you can look forward to is more sustainable gifts for Christmas, like this DIY Buddha Zen Garden.  Not every gift has to be bought and filled with lots of plastic that will eventually end up in a landfill.  Some gifts can be created handmade at an affordable price.

There's something really special about a gift that comes from the heart.  So, I'm going to be putting out some sustainable handmade gifts that are made from repurposing or recycled materials.  I have a few things in the works to kick off the holiday season!

In the meantime, I'm trying to think consciously about the purchases I make for family, friends, and pets.  I think if you're considerate of your purchases, you are already making a difference!

It's never about trying to be perfect.  It's about doing the best you can with what you have.  In fact, it's one of the reasons I really enjoy shopping on Etsy.

It's handmade purchases and I'm supporting small, eco-friendly businesses.  One year, I ended up buying all my presents in the handmade marketplace, and it worked out to my advantage.

I also like how many Etsians make the experience personal for their shoppers.  I always look for that when shopping nowadays.  I look for rare, unique, and one of a kind items along with a personalized shopping experience.

In the meantime, don't be afraid to make your own handmade gifts with love.  Create your own soaps from botanicals.  Make a sweet Christmas inspired flower crown for your daughter.  It's the thought that counts.

For more on flower crowns, you might enjoy reading, I Have This Thing With Flower Crowns.  It might inspire you to design your own DIY flower crown.  You never know!

My goal for the Christmas season is to just live in the moment and enjoy it.  I'm always thinking ahead to the next thing.  I'm always thinking I just want to get through this holiday then the next.

I want to relish and enjoy every magical moment watching my granddaughters open their presents.  I want to snap lots of photographs with family.  I want to start thinking about what I want my New Year's Resolution to be.

Things like that are what make the spirit of the holidays so much fun to get through.  I'm trying not to put too much expectation on how I want things to turn out but instead live in the flow of the season.

Who knows, maybe that will end up being my resolution for the new year.  To just live in the magic of the moment and go with the flow.  Thanks for reading! xo

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