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Love Magic: My Secret Crush + Manifesting a Specific Person

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Remember when I said I was going to do another blog post on my love life?  Here it is!   This is my second installment of love magic (my new blog series) and this time I'm honing in on my secret crush + manifesting a specific person.

I'm going to be straightforward with you. I was reluctant to write this post, however, Archangel Raphael encouraged me to be brave enough to write it in order to keep my heart chakra open.  For more on the romance angels, you might enjoy reading, Working With Archangel Raphael to Find True Love and Your Twinflame!

For more on how to open your heart chakra in order to let love in, you might love reading, Working With Archangel Chamuel to Open the Heart Chakra With Romance Angels!  The first step toward finding love of any kind is making sure you have a green, healthy heart chakra.

Now, back to my reluctance.  I went on a date after writing this post on the qualities I'm looking for in a man.  I mean, the guy literally showed up at my door the very next day.  Love spells and love magic definitely work!

What I wasn't prepared for is what happened next.  A week later, after texting back and forth and getting a lot of reassurance from him, we ended up going on a hiking date.  To make a long story short, the end of the date ended abruptly with no kiss.

I won't get into it, because it's still painful to the touch to think about.  I remember being floored when he texted me a couple days later and told me there wasn't a romantic connection.  To this day, I still feel like he made a mistake.

My life changed in an instant when I met this guy, before we even went on our hiking date together, which actually ended up being a lot of fun until the very end.  When he gave me his phone number, I was never planning on calling or texting him back.

Something inside of me, the voice of my spirit guides, kept chirping in my ear to call or text him back.  The only other time that has happened to me was when I met my ex-boyfriend.  I knew this was indicative of a soulmate or twin flame relationship.

Back then, what I didn't know is that a twin flame relationship often has a runner and a chaser, followed by instant exponential spiritual growth.  That is exactly what happened to me following this date.

My life went from night to day in December once he came into my life and quickly made his exit.  That only happens with a twin flame romance.

I'll be honest, at first, I thought I was going crazy.  For weeks after our short-lived romance, I kept feeling like he made a huge mistake.  I also kept wondering what I did wrong.

I kept feeling him thinking about me constantly.  I would have vivid dreams of him and I holding hands, where I'd wake up feeling like he was right next to me.  Only he wasn't.

I think I met my twin flame.  He wasn't my type.  He wasn't anything like I thought he would be, but there's a soulmate connection there.

Here's the thing:  That feeling has never gone away.  I can still feel him thinking about me and it goes above and beyond that.  Since almost the beginning, I knew he was going to come forward and communicate with me.

I even asked for a clear sign from the universe about my love life and about him specifically, which lead me to find some quality tarot readers on YouTube.  Guess what they all seem to say?  He wants to have heart-to-heart conversations with me, he regrets leaving his Aries, but he's afraid to come forward and clear the air.

I can't tell you how many times I've thought of picking up the phone and calling him.  I came close a few times, but after being rejected by him, I ultimately decided if he wants me he needs to speak up.  I'm at least open to hearing what he has to say if he lays all his cards out on the table.

I didn't know that much about the twin flame relationship until I met him.  He would be considered the runner because he got spooked and to this day is still hiding his feelings for me.  I think he felt something, but it scared him.

The reason I know is that I felt it too.  The entire date was magical until the very end.  I remember being completely flummoxed that he didn't walk me to the door and kiss me.

I was in denial about what I was feeling for the longest time.  I put up a lot of resistance, but the universe finally wore me down.  I think I had to work through the hurt feelings I felt when he rejected me so suddenly.

From what I understand, he's going through the dark night of the soul right now.  This means that I activated a sudden spiritual change and revelation within him too.  None of this would have happened unless we were eternal flames.

What have I been doing to manifest him back?  I have done a lot of work on myself.  I went from being a sullen girl to a woman empowered practically overnight.

I've stepped into my power and into the light.  While I'm working on stability, which is my word for the year, I'm also working on self-love.

Meeting him showed me that I still had work to do on myself.  Work that could only be done alone.  I needed to improve my relationship with myself first and foremost.

I never, ever thought I'd be someone who would create an intention to manifest a specific person.  I've always been about new love energy.

However, we still have a connection.  It's a connection that has a silvery filamented thread that holds us together.  I can feel him thinking of me and going through contemplation on whether to contact me or not.

At this point, he's my secret crush, and the only thing that can bring him out of hiding is himself.  I already know that he's going to come forward to communicate with me.  It's just a matter of when.

In the meantime, I'm keeping myself busy with work and making money doing what I love.  It feels like forever since I last spoke with him.  It sometimes feels like a dream.

All I know is how I feel in my heart.  I eventually gave up on resisting what I was feeling.  I tried not to feel what I was feeling, but there's no denying what my spirit guides are telling me.

It's coming to an end soon.  I know that much.  I wouldn't be surprised if my next love magic blog post is about our reconciliation.

Patience isn't my forte and I am getting frustrated trying to manifest my SP.  However, this is the love of a lifetime and I feel he's worth the wait.  It's just really against my Aries nature to hold onto someone or something for this long.

I can feel myself getting restless and I'm looking for ways to pass the time while I'm waiting.  Sure, pouring myself into my work and coin virtue is a good thing, but I'd like to do something fun.

Maybe go on some dates or hang out with my guy friends for fun.  That type of thing.  Anything to get rid of those damn butterflies fluttering in my heart as I wait for him.

I've never felt this way before.  Normally, if this were a past situation, I wouldn't think twice about this guy.  My intuition and spirit guides keep telling me that our story is just beginning.

If you have a specific person you're trying to manifest back into your life, don't listen to anyone else.  It's important to trust your gut on things like this and to follow your heart equally, even if it doesn't make sense to you or anyone else.

The most important thing you need to do is work on loving yourself first because you deserve love just as much as anyone else in the world.  By the time there's a reconciliation, you'll both be healed and ready for love and all that goes along with that.

Another tip I have is to walk out of the waiting room and go live your life.  If someone asks you on a date, don't say no.  It's important that they feel you letting go and enjoying life because that's the exact moment when they will come back to you.

In fact, this is the place that I'm at in my life right now.  I haven't been dating as of yet, but I wouldn't say no if another person came along and asked me out.  I'm keeping my heart chakra open with Archangel Raphael's green energy healing ball of light.

I'm also working on having more fun in life and hanging out with guys because I love the masculine energy of men.  I don't care if we're just friends or not because I'm not looking for anything else right now.

I'm just keeping my heart and options open.  Yes, I'll be thinking of him, feeling his energy as he thinks of me, but at least my weekends will be fun and inviting with good people around me.

Also, if you are trying to manifest a specific person, you're not crazy for wanting to.  Maybe that person is your soulmate relationship or twin flame.  Whatever the case may be, follow your heart!

There's a reason why they call it a crazy little thing called love.  It's illogical and doesn't always make sense but then again, it's not supposed to.

Go ahead and let yourself be a fool for love, because that may be the moment when your specific person comes strolling back into your life ready for commitment.  Be a love fool and know that it is safe for you to love!
Hi, I'm Laurali! I write about moon magic and seasonal shifts and all things faery. about me


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