Everyday Laurali Star

Life As a Solitary Green Witch!

Laurali
Hi, I'm Laurali! I live in a tiny, seaside fishing village in Florida where I nurture my plants, go hiking in the woodland, and wear flowers in my hair.

Currently: Living a Charmed Kind of Life (Well, Sorta)

 

A whimsical flower bud in a butterfly garden ready to bloom in the sun filtered light of a Florida forest

Currently, I am living a charmed kind of life (well, sorta!) Lately, I've been feeling very content and satisfied with my life, even though there are still things left lingering unresolved. I'm on a high-vibration right now and I'd like to share with you what I've done to increase the power and magic in my life.

It's not that I have the most exciting life in the world, but it's the everyday mundane magic that makes my life so charming.  It's the little things in life that make me feel happy and fulfilled.

I'm also someone who doesn't ask for much in life and doesn't need much.  As long as I have my family, plants, and my inner magic to guide me then I'm normally a pretty happy gal.  It's about having that "inner knowing" that comes with trusting my intuition!

But, there are some things that I have been doing differently lately, that have worked to raise my vibration.  Feel free to use what works for you!  Maybe it will inspire you to live a charmed kind of life too.

The Star Tarot Card and Archangel Jophiel (Angel of Hope, Optimism, and Renewal)

So, what's changed within my life?  What's different about me?  The first thing that comes to mind is that I've been really working on my eternal faith and optimism with Archangel Jophiel this year.  

I've spoken about this before, but Archangel Jophiel is the angel that's on the star card in the tarot deck that I use.  She brings people back to life!

The angel of beauty and feng shui knows how to weed a garden and get rid of what no longer is working for us.  What happens when you trim back a garden?  You get lush growth!

Working with Archangel Jophiel and the star tarot card this year has given me a lot of hope and trust in the universe.  More importantly, she's given me the gift of being able to trust myself!

The star card often pops up when we're at a place in our life where we're about to give up on something.  You don't get the star tarot card unless you've been through something and come out on the other side.

There have been several areas of my life where there has been new growth this year.  One of the places that had grown cold and stagnant was in my love life.  If I'm being completely honest, it's still kind of stuck, and there hasn't been a ton of movement.

I feel like that's all about to change though and that has made a difference.  Why?  I met my twin flame this year!  

You can read all about my twin flame experience in, The Secret, Hidden Places Within My Heart Space (Hidden in  Plain Sight!)  It's been a slow burn with him, but I've met the person that I'm supposed to be with and that gives me hope again.  

Romantic love was an area that I was about to give up on!  Even after meeting my twin flame, things haven't gone swimmingly.  We're in separation right now, but there's this powerful feeling of "knowing" we're going to reconcile and come together in union.

Dare I say it, but there were times I was about to give up on my blog too!  Blogging and my dark night of the soul experience seemed to coincide, so I had a lot of karma to work through in order to become successful in my own right.

Every time that I felt like giving up when I felt I couldn't take anymore, I would call on Jophiel and she would renew my hope, faith, and optimism in my life purpose.  I never would have thought so, but the hardest thing in the world to do is to believe in yourself.

Another great thing about the star card in readings is that she keeps telling me that everything is going to be okay.  You're at the end of a long, dark journey and you're about to come into your own.  When the star card pops out into a reading, she is trying to tell you to hold tight, your dreams are about to come true!

There's just this overall sense of trust that I have in the universe that I always wanted, but never thought I could have.  It was difficult to keep believing in myself, without the proof to move forward.  Faith is believing in something before the proof ever appears, as that's what brings it into existence.

For more on building unwavering faith, you might enjoy reading, Take a Leap of Faith With Goddess Aine: Fairy Queen of Motivation!  Having more faith has really uplifted me and put me on a higher vibration.  It's a good place to start!

Trusting My Intuition and Inner Guidance As Real and Trustworthy

In addition to that, I've had an awakening when it comes to trusting my "inner knowing" and intuition, especially as it pertains to relationships.  I've been burned so many times by toxic, abusive relationships that I had my guard up.  

I would give someone the benefit of the doubt, no matter what walk of life they came from.  I always have liked to stand in my own power and form my own opinion of others without outside influence.  I would always follow my heart, which is inherently a good thing, but I would always be left heartsick and disappointed.  

This happened to me so many times that I no longer could trust what that little voice inside me was saying.  I couldn't trust myself because it felt like I was always led astray.  I felt like there was no hope for me and that I would always make poor choices and that I just had to live with that.

Somehow, someway, I've been able to move past it recently.  I've really been tuning into my own inner guidance, instead of constantly asking the universe for signs and reassurance.  I trust myself again and that's a huge shift in my life!

I still have moments of doubt wash over me from time to time, but that's because I'm human and I'm flawed.  However, those ego-based thoughts no longer dictate how I live my life.  They no longer run the show.  

I'm trusting that what I'm feeling and believing is true now.  I know that I've met my twin flame and even though were in separation at the moment, I trust we'll come together in union soon!  I'm trusting that with very little physical proof or evidence.  

I know what I know now and I'm trusting my higher self.  I was never able to do that before.  It's scary to live in a world where you can't trust yourself and I have moved into a place of trusting my guidance. 

My twin flame is the one that ignited the spark within and the spiritual growth that has gone from barren sea to fruitful forest.  That's what twin flames do.  They are here to bring forth exponential growth in their other halves.  

For more on soulmates and twin flame relationships, you might love reading, Working With Archangel Raphael to Find True Love and Your Twinflame!  Archangel Raphael has a way of helping soul connections to meet up and get to know each other better.  That and he's also the angel of travel and healing!

It's not just my romantic love life that has been touched though, even though it may seem like it.  Meeting my soul connection was just the beginning of some of the changes that would be made in my life.  

Borderline Personality Disorder and My Dark Self + Shadow Work

This year has caught me by surprise!  I had pretty much given up hope on just about everything in my life.  I grew comfortable in my darkness, so much so, that I could no longer see the light.  

Now, I have a brand-new awareness and understanding of myself.  One of the things I had to accept was that I have Borderline Personality Disorder.  When I was Baker Acted a couple of years ago, this was something that had been brought up to me.  I just didn't see myself that way.

Then, back in December, I went on a hiking date that would change everything.  I was rejected by a guy that I had invested my time and energy into.  I took the rejection really, really hard.

By hard, I mean that I cried for weeks about it.  I was suicidal and hopeless over it.  Abandonment, rejection, and ghosting are huge triggers for me.  This guy gave me the holy trinity.  

I was completely crushed by him.  That was the moment that I knew something was wrong with me.  That was the moment that I knew that what the psychiatrist had said was true.  

I had BPD and that accepting that I had a personality disorder was equally difficult, even though I knew it was true.  It explained so many things that had happened in my relationships with men.  

Being able to acknowledge what was wrong inside of me gave me the courage to work on myself and my interpersonal relationships.  It gave me clarity and insight to seek help and make changes.  

For me, I turned to my faith for help with my BPD.  I started working with Jesus to bring universal love and light to the world and that seemed to be of great comfort to me.

Beyond that, a light began to grow within me and illuminate the truth on everything.  I still had bad habits and relationships that I needed to face.  Like, why did I always have to shut people out completely when we had a fight?

It's like I would ghost someone so that they couldn't ghost me first.  It was self-sabotage and it's one of the many reasons why I've ended up alone for the time being.  I'm working on myself and facing my truths.

Lately, I've really been working on my shadow self and you can too!  It's scary to face the dark corners of your mind, but doing so will set you free.  Believe me, I know!

You might like reading, Shadow Work and Getting in Touch With Your Dark Self!  It's like a workbook with lots of questions that help you to get to know your dark side so you can integrate it with your light side.  

I've come to realize that my BPD is rooted in childhood trauma and deeply rooted issues from the past.  I've been working through the childhood sexual abuse that ignited these issues in the first place.  It's scary sometimes, but working with my spirit helpers makes it less scary for me.  

I'm working through some really tough things in my life, but at the same time, I've never felt more inspired and hopeful for the future!  It wasn't that long ago when I didn't know if I would have a future, let alone be planning for one.  

I went from being someone who sometimes didn't care whether she lived or died, to being someone who can't wait to see what's over the rainbow!  That's huge for someone who has spent her whole life in isolation and darkness, consumed with thoughts of suicidal ideation.  My severe mental illness was crippling me.  

My inner child was begging to be healed and restored.  I feel like I've found my magic again and that it was always there, just beneath the surface of the water.  Blogging and meeting my twin flame have really been huge catalysts for change in my life.  

Even though for the past decade or so, I've been on a deep spiritual journey, it felt like I would never see the light again.  That's why getting that star card, major arcana, means so much to someone like me!  It's the hope that I needed to follow my heart again.

If you are looking for signs, you found it sign in the heart of Hammock Park in Dunedin, Florida

Currently: Living a Charmed Kind of Life (Well, Sorta)

Where am I at now?  Things aren't perfect.  There's still a lot of things left unresolved and unfinished business lingering from the past like I said at the beginning of this post.  But, I'm in a good place now!

For one thing, I'm completely embracing my life as a solitary green witch and what it's like for me!  I turned to my spells to begin to take my power back.

Before I started doing my spellwork again, I had completely lost sight of why I wanted to become a witch in the first place.  I wanted to become a witch because I felt helpless in my life and performing spells helps me to take matters into my own hands.

Not only that, but there was still so much about witchcraft that I didn't understand or had completely glossed over.  Therefore, I joined Witch Academy with Avery from, "The Traveling Witch" blog.  Within minutes, I learned so much from her that I decided to stick it out.  

Lately, I've been deepening my practice, and have gotten quite good at crafting my own spells by design!  Not only that, but I have the trust and faith to back up my spells.  Before, I was just throwing spaghetti at the wall with my spells, hoping something would stick.

Now, I'm more like the magician card in the tarot card deck, with a deep inner knowing that my spells will work.  Sure, I have doubts every now and then, but my spells are very powerful and they always work for me!

It's funny how something as simple as believing can make such a huge difference in the results you get from casting a spell.  For more on spellwork, you might enjoy trying, How to Make An Herbal Envelope Spell With Herbs, Spices, and Elements of Nature.  It's a tried and true method that really works!

In addition to taking ownership of my witchcraft, I've become quite the domestic goddess since I moved into my new tiny house in the tiny, seaside fishing village that I live in!  I mean, I've always been a homebody, but my new house has amplified my magic with fresh energy!

It's taken some time for me to ground my energy since moving in mid-June, but my home has warm vibes and welcoming energy.  It's a place where I can practice my witchcraft, do my writing, and spend time in the garden like I love to do.  

I feel very at home here like this is where I was always meant to be!  My old place was depleting my energy and slowly sucking my soul out, a little at a time.  I never realized how much my old place on Bay Street was filled with a lot of dark, negative energy until I was able to escape it.

Overall, I feel really good here!  I'm happy.  I am living a charmed kind of life by being the down-to-earth nature goddess that I am.  

Moving to a new house, facing my demons, accepting the things I cannot change, have all created a calm within me, a shelter from the storm.  I do sometimes feel like there's this invisible thread that runs through me and that if I yank it wrong, everything will go up in smoke.  

But, I also know that's my ego mind talking.  I have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, as I navigate my brave new world.  

I'm holding onto hope for the first time in my life!  I would never hold onto hope before because I thought that it would always bring eternal misery.  Yet, here I am, finding hope in impossible situations.  

The biggest thing that has changed lately is how I feel about my life and how I see myself.  Sure, I can see my flaws, I can see that I am damaged, but I can also see my inner beauty and strength.  

As far as the lingering things yet to be resolved, they will be.  I know there's a reconciliation coming with my twin flame.  My spirit guides have told me the ball is in my court.  

I also know that the star card came out for a reason.  She's here to ensure that my dreams come true and I have taken on some of her stellar qualities.  

This tells me where my blog has become a small-town community, more people will take notice.  The right kind of people, with the right kind of golden opportunities.  My job is to keep writing and believing in myself.

Ten years ago, I took a dark turn into the dark night of the soul to become a full-time writer.  I may have wavered at times, knowing what I truly wanted, but I never ever gave up!

Sometimes, it's about the journey.  Not the destination.  But, other times, it's about getting the best of both worlds.  

I've waited patiently for the right sign on where to go next and that's when the star tarot card started stalking me.  Sometimes, I hate when tarot cards stalk me, but this time, I'm really happy to have her along for the ride!

Thanks for reading about my little corner of the world!  Hopefully, it will give you a little hope too.  For those times when you can't believe in yourself, know that I believe in each and every one of you.

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