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Laurali
Hi, I'm Laurali! I live in a tiny, seaside fishing village in Florida where I nurture my plants, go hiking in the woodland, and wear flowers in my hair.

The Winds of Change: Choosing a New Direction

a whimsical wind chime with stars and cloud shapes blowing in the warm summer breeze in a Florida cemetery

If you read my post yesterday about mini-tower moments, then you know that the winds of change have once again blown into my life to help me choose a new direction. Since my move in mid-June, I have felt a lot of restless energy and uncertainty surrounding me.

In the past couple of weeks, the restlessness within me has been stirred, causing me many a sleepless night. If you've read my tower tarot card post, then you know that I have the answers that I need to move forward fearlessly and begin a new butterfly transformation journey.

That's what tower moments do, after all. They create spiritual awakening and room to grow. They also breakdown your entire belief system so that you can build on a new, stronger foundation.
 

Today, I want to talk about what that change in a new direction looks like.  I'm a big believer in makeovers and doing a major glow-up with Archangel Jophiel, the angel of aesthetic beauty and feng shui.  I'm really big into self-improvement and being your best self.

Right now, I don't feel good enough.  I don't feel worthy of love, and all of that has to change within me.  I need to first start working on feeling good about myself again as my place of stability in which to grow.  

Remember, it all goes back to building a new stable foundation after the old shaky foundation breaks down and crumbles.  When all your left with is wreckage, what do you do with it?

Honestly, when bad stuff happens to me I see a big craft project in front of me, filled with glitter and paper flowers.  I see it as an opportunity to grow as a person and to make myself a better human being.

Right now, I'm trying to get over somebody.  I'm of the mind when I'm done with someone, I'm done.  I don't want to spend any more of my precious time crying over spilled milk.

However, I'm trying to give myself those little moments where tears come unbidden.  I'm allowing myself to tear up and cry when I need to, all while simultaneously going about my day.  That's the most energy I can put into it at this time.  

I also feel that energetically, I feel lighter making this break.  I've been waiting all summer, hoping to hear from this person.  Probably because he had assured me we would talk about things at a later date then proceeded to ghost me, more than once.  

Now, I feel like I have this room and space in my life for other things.  There's room to grow now and the change in direction I'm longing for is to shift all of the focus onto me.  

What do I want in life?  That's what I'm focusing on right now.  I'm trying to focus on doing little things that make me happy again.  

I'm trying to get back in the rhythm of things by getting back into my routines and rituals.  For example, I've only done my yoga practice once since I've moved into my new place.  That's not like me.

Since this is a new place, I laid out my yoga mat to see if I could try to get on it today, whether it be to meditate or to find the right spot to place my yoga mat.  I feel like finding the ideal spot where the energy feels good is a good lesson in feng shui.  

Right now, I have it sitting in my kitchen, waiting for me to feel inspired.  I might try it in my carpeted living room later.  That's why I called on Archangel Jophiel this morning to help me find the perfect place to do my yoga.  

Eventually, when monsoon season is over, I may head outdoors some mornings and try outdoor yoga.  It's funny, but these little tweaks and changes make a difference in my energy.  Energetically, I feel as light as a feather right now!

In some ways, that sounds really great, right?  The problem with that is that I also feel ungrounded.  You can find 5-grounding rituals for a nature walk if you are having the same struggle.   

I'm basically feeling out of sorts, restless, and interchangeable at the moment.  In some ways, this is good because it leads to fiery transformative change.  In some ways, it's bad because it means I haven't fully shifted yet into what my next season of life will be.  

But, I am letting the winds of change come into my life and transform me.  I am choosing to take a new direction and do what is best for me, whatever it may be.  

The Winds of Change: Choosing a New Direction

What changes would I like to see happen in my life?  By changes, I'm referring to the kind of changes that one has control of.  There are so many things that is out of our hands as human beings.  

Therefore, it's good to reassess things and make a plan for things that are within your control.  What can I control in my life right now?

I can control my own behavior and how I react to things.  I can control how I choose to see the situation I find myself in.  Like, right now, I see my situation as a big arts and crafts project filled with opportunity for growth and change.

I started a major glow-up in the spring that got backtracked the second I found out that I was going to have to leave my old place on Bay Street.  I see no reason not to pick up from where I left off.

That was a magical time for me!  I was doing my vinyasa flow yoga as part of my daily routine.  I was juicing every morning and eating more baby greens.  Overall, I was in a good place mentally, physically, and spiritually.

Then, change came and I kind of lost my reason for all these changes.  Maybe he was meant to spark growth in me in some way.  This seems to be the case because it was at this point that my kundalini awakening really began to take place in a more pronounced way.

As much as I am hurting right now, I choose to see the blessings and hidden gems in this situation.  I choose to see the good he sparked in my life.  He sorta became my muse for keeping good spiritual habits and routines at the time.

So, I don't have him anymore.  In fact, I never really had him the way that I wanted him.  I wanted him to ask me out and to get to know me better.  But, fate intervened, stepped in, and said no to that.

I have to trust that the universe has my back and knows what it's doing.  I have to believe that maybe he came into my life for some reason, even if the energies and feelings are all enmeshed, and tangled up right now.  

In the meantime, I'm choosing to see that when the winds of change come, it's for good reason.  It's because something better is waiting in the wings for me.  

I'd like to get my spark back.  If he can't be my muse anymore, then who can be?  Should I even have a muse?  These are all the many questions swirling around in my head at the moment.  

Here are a small list of some of the changes I'm thinking of making.  Some are more subtle than others, but to me, that's where real change happens.  

Changes I'd Like to Make:

  1. Find my ideal, perfect yoga spot using feng shui
  2. I'd like to get back into eating (or drinking) more baby greens
  3. I'm in the midst of creating a new monthly subscription, Moon and Seasonal, with extended moon readings and seasonal shifts
  4. I'd like to break away from sponsorships to run a self-sustaining blog business model
  5. Get my yoga practice on track by doing yoga at least 30-minutes five-days a week!
  6. I want to keep practicing temperance, in order to keep my feelings and emotions in check
  7. Learn how to focus my energies on things that feel good to me, including on this blog.  I was starting to get back into health and wellness topics, but I really want to shift my focus to my life as a solitary green witch.
  8. I've closed the comment section on this blog to encourage feedback through my contact form and newsletter signup, where you get free moon readings and you'll have full access to me!  That means you can ask me questions or spark a conversation.  I like the thought of building a community of friends who are like family to me.
  9. Move on from someone in my life who no longer makes me feel good.  You should always feel like the person you are desiring is a blessing.  If you don't feel blessed by the situation, then it's probably time to move on.
  10. Create a ritual sacrifice spell in which I give up a bad habit for something better.  I plan on doing that today and sharing it on the blog as soon as I can!  It's a new type of spellcraft that I'm trying.
I'm sure there are many more, but these are the things I've thought of changing off the top of my head.  It's time to shake things up, have more fun in my life.  If something isn't serving me, I need to let go of it.

I have this bad habit of holding onto things way past their expiration date and I want to stop doing that and move beyond it.  If anyone could do it, it would be me, with my queen of wands energy!

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